I’ve lost 12 lbs. in the past month because of stress. I have no idea what’s going to happen next but I can almost guarantee it will be bad because that’s just how my life is going. I want to go one day where I have no stress and I don’t have to worry about anything. I can’t get over anything lately and everything is just piled up inside. It sucks to want to do nothing but cry all the time, but I have to keep my head up for the sake of everyone else. My major trust issues keep me from putting too much out there to anybody, and it’s awful. I want so badly to blurt everything out to somebody who genuinely cares and be able to cry without feeling like an idiot. I have to face the fact that even if I cry when I’m alone, it’s honestly not changing anything because no one knows how I’m really feeling. All I know is that if I don’t get some help, I’m going to be so messed up when I’m older and I don’t want that.